Friday Nooner

Hello everyone, it's been a while. Again. But, here I am and I am so very very happy that it is Friday. A big round of applause for Fridays! (I'll wait. Go ahead and clap.) Despite the fact that I've been in the office since 6 am, it's been a good day. I wonder how much that has to do with the fact that it is almost sunny out? I hear that we may even hit 70 degrees tomorrow. OM-fucking-G. Tomorrow is a busy day of kid crap and errands but at least it should be sunny and, throwing caution to the wind, I am planning on NOT wearing a coat. Gasp. I am even planning on doing some much needed yard work tomorrow. And buying some wine. Need some more wine in the house. I guess one has nothing to do with the other but, stay with me people, my brain works in weird ways.

What else? Oh, Kim, you'll love this. Guess who just was tasked with ANOTHER presentation? Dammit. This one is in-house so I'll survive with just a teensy less stress than usual. Plus, it's on an area of law that I am pretty comfortable with so it's not like I have to be an expert on something brand new. No, that special task is reserved for the BIG SHITTY PRESENTATION.

Hey- I may actually get to see Kim this weekend. When was the last time we even saw each other, Kim? Do you remember? I think it's after our trip to Palm Springs at the BEGINNING of February. Maybe? Maybe not. That's ridiculous. We live in the same zip code for God's sake. Good times on the schedule for tomorrow. Time with Kim is something to look forward to. That, and almost 70 degrees.

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Okay, I am Alone

Wait, I am alone at the moment and it is greatttttttttttt. Isn't that what the Frosted Flakes tiger said. I love being alone. I just finished watching my new favorite vice, Housewives of New York, and am enjoying being alone. I am so tired of hearing "mom, MOm, MOMMY". My great grandmother said she was going to change her name to SHIT so her children wouldn't call her so often. If that strategy worked, I change my name to booger, phlegm, acne or butt wipe. Too bad it doesn't work, my children don't ever leave me alone...they seek me out and find me no matter where I am. I stumble on the question"mama, what do you think?" I love being called mama, in a Little House on the Prairie kinda way, but I also wanta make a dumpster dive and scream "can't you fuckin' decide for yourself!" I guess the bottom line is I need parenting classes, CP wanta join me?

How my Day Started

My dog wet the bed.  My bed while I was in it.  That is all, it went downhill from there.

Deep(ish) Thoughts.

So, I was working late last night and my mind was wandering from what I was supposed to be doing. I started thinking about a conversation I had with client/fellow mom at lunch about how we parent the best that we can, even though sometimes we realize we aren't the parent we thought we would be. I started thinking about how I really am not the parent I wanted to be. I wish I was more fun, more creative, more nurturing and less controlling. I demand a lot from my kids in terms of behavior and helping out. They really are great kids. I can take them anywhere at any time of the day and I don't worry about- will they sit still, with they be quiet, will they be patient, etc. They know how to behave in public and what is expected of them. Now, they don't act like that all the time. At home, sometimes my ears ring from the noise of three kids running around, playing, etc. But, that's OK. So, where was I going with this post? Oh yes, my thoughts last night. Anyway, I was wondering if its too late to be the parent I want to be? Did I miss the boat, especially with the older 2 kids? This is not a practice life; I don't get to do this over. Those thoughts led me to- is this the life I want to be living? Is it everything I want it to be? Do I need to make changes so that I don't feel as though I'm just trying to make it through each week, day, hour? Am I really living in the moment or am I too wrapped up in all that I "have to do" that I am missing out on life, my life, the only life I get? How does this affect my children and husband?

I was talking to Kim earlier today and we were discussing this same topic. We really didin't have the time to delve too deep into it, but I do know that Kim is an extremely thoughtful and insightful person and I will value any and all thoughts she may have on this topic. Heather as well but Heather is busy these days so we'll have to wait to hear from her.